fri
Warriors won so i bought donuts for my coworkers
dinner /w linn and rhi's crew over near metreon
took linn home cuz she was to tired...
saw spiderman 3 with some friends.
laughed at how bad and annoyingly real it had to be.

sat
downtown shoppin all day.  whore'd it.
outfits galore.
tanforan shoppin for another outfit.
tofu house. yup.

sun
grandparents.  1 yr anniversary (though iono if i like that date) for my grandma...

taravel house with fam...
photoshoot /w linn in oakland @ will's place...
spurs vs suns
downtown yet again(valet recognized me, that's how bad it is)
vic and i talked for the nite.

mon
work was HOT
cuz it was sweltering i got to leave early
susie is in town for cal so we had dinner
caught the warriors though now i wish i didnt.
s'ok... they aint even supposed to be here like i keep saying.

bought my laptop online, a fujitsu tablet that allows me to draw on it.
pressure at work has been insane.  today is friday and i swear imma crack.

afterthought...

my new tv in my room.  work pays off.  ^_^

ya ur seeing that right.  be a nerd, shop with this and get free minutes for WoW...

smart idea... clip and usb memory...

if i move out into the city... motorcycle suitcase!!!


pillow fight! on ur cell phone!!! um... can be played with 1 hand...

some cool pillows... MUST HAVEs!!!

for that spoiled child that needs to have everything, buy em NOTHING!

oh those crazy japanese... that aint a GAME! that's a CHORE!

instant rice... just add water?

connect 4! guarantee no kid goin to swallow the pieces anymore!

fold-able guitar!

tetris pillows!  i would so MAKE A TETRIS and then sleep on it!

quit using paper and kill an animal for ur coffee cover!  SKIN IS IN!

programmable toaster... hahahaha

military grade chocolate can feed a man all day long...

Hoops on the go!  imagine tryin to dunk on that as the guy is driving away! 

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SERIOUSLY the song of the moment...

tired of injustice
tired of the schemes
the lies are disgusting
so what does it mean
kicking me down
i got to get up
as jacked as it sounds
the whole system sucks

peek in the shadow
come into the light
you tell me i'm wrong
then you better prove you're right
you're sellin' out souls but
i care about mine
i've got to get stronger
and i won't give up the fight

with such confusions don't it make you wanna scream
your bash abusin' victimize within the scheme

you try to cope with every lie they scrutinize

somebody please have mercy
'cause i just can't take it
stop pressurin' me
just stop pressurin' me
stop pressurin' me
make me wanna scream
stop pressurin' me
just stop pressurin' me
stop pressurin' me
make you just wanna scream

tired of you tellin' the story your way
it's causin' confusion
you think it's okay

you keep changin' the rules
while i keep playin' the game
i can't take it much longer
i think i might go insane

with such confusion don't it make you wanna scream
your bash abusin' victimize within the scheme
you find your pleasure scandalizin' every lie

oh father, please have mercy 'cause i just can't take it
stop pressurin' me
just stop pressurin' me
stop pressurin' me
make me wanna scream
stop pressurin' me
just stop pressurin' me
stop *?!@#!in' with me
make me wanna scream

Oh brother please have mercy 'Cause I just can't take it
Stop pressurin' me
Just stop pressurin' me
Stop pressurin' me
Make me wanna scream
Stop pressurin' me
Just stop pressurin' me
Stop pressurin' me
Make me wanna scream
Stop pressurin' me
Just stop pressurin' me
Stop pressurin' me
Make me wanna scream
Stop pressurin' me
Just stop pressurin' me
Stop pressurin' me
Make me wanna scream

i gripped her fingers between mine. a feelin of connection, that this was meant to be.  i could feel every bump, crevice and wrinkle in her hands; hands that saw and done more in life than few could believe.  these were hands that held me when i cried, cherished my warmth, and pinched my cheeks.  these were the hands that brought together simple ingredients and turned them into a feast.  hands that brought life into this world and caressed it with enough care and nurture to last a life time.  hands that once held anothers as i was holding hers... shaking with worry of the inevitable. 
i could feel the faint pulse that brought so much energy into this world, now slowly slipping away...
the world had become an excruciating silence that ripped into my ears, which were starving for any sensation beyond the stale air. 
our eyes never left one anothers, locked into each others thoughts.  not a word was spoken. our dialogues had been said a million times over, as if two old actors reciting an old play for a the last time.  we smiled desperately to hide the thoughts running through our minds, but in futility we knew each other to well to hide anything. 

my senses were being bombarded from all directions as my brain tried to focus on every detail, past and present.  trying to photograph every second i had spent with her, every shared moment, every loving memory.  she lay there, weaker than any nightmare imaginable.   

the silence was cut with her faint heart beat, which at this point was far from any normal rhythm.  i couldnt bare closing my eyes, hearing the irregularity of it...
and yet whenever i gazed upon her diminished body... i wondered how much more her and i  could endure.

i laughed to myself, the hysteria of it all... how surreal it must have been to be gazing down on the two of us... fighting the inevitable.  it was only while our eyes crossed did i finally see.  the faint glimmer within her now softened eyes...
no more fear.

she bravely accepted what was to come, while i was unrelenting and fighting with fate.  i could not let go of what i had so easily dismissed as a constant in my life.  the reality of it was untollerable to me even to the last seconds.  but i could feel it.
the warmth within her hands returning.  just briefly.  but enough for me to see what she did.  to bravely move on from this world. 

finally...
peace.

i miss her.  
this day and every after.

an entry from last yr...

"today we bury our pain and mutual suffering. but not our loving memories."

WARRIORS!!!

I have been unable to speak correctly for the last 2 weeks.
I have been cheering non stop... booing non stop... and laughin non stop.

swings of emotions.

ALWAYS and FOREVER a WARRIORS FAN.

nothing has deterred me.  nothing phasing me.  
its one of the few times i've EVER stuck to a resolve and never been tempted to stray.

my choice.  my love.  my passion. 

I DO LOVE THE WARRIORS and with that love comes all the responsibility and ridicule of it all.

it feels good to grin and just smile (cuz i cant scream w/out my voice) at everyone who has ever 
SAID ANYTHING about my team. 

this series victory was for u and and ur negative energy.

to be a warriors fan, u have to be masochist.
everyone else is bandwagon for all i care.  =)

OH burn in hell SAC town and LA fans who are now moving over cuz ur teams got burned!
BWAHAHAHHAHA
u guys are the weakest fans ever.
go be a clips fan. 

now to wish Phoenix to play INCREDIBLY well over the Spurs...
and that we can get through the rough and tough jazz, or the talented rockets.

to quote fry ... "this is like sex! only i'm having it!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

this weekend doesnt matter anymore... i'm so mellow...

to make up for a lack of crap...

RUBBER DUCKY YOU'RE THE ONE!!! RUBBER DUCKY YOU'RE TONS OF FUN!
hahahahaha.... this gag gift is so the right thing to give to like 1/2 of my friends...
ONE USE ONLY!!!

 
Woah!  GOOGLE PHONE!!!  that's pretty sweet...
all concept... but wut a concept...

Mercedez car... correction... mercedez GOLD plated car...

the future of wallets... no more rolls of photos in there...
just 1 digital portfolio.  ^_^


Yup!  MORE SPACE INVADERS!

Think ur to hip for a party?  then look like a movie star gone bad with these
black out shades!

can this be?  card dorks meets video game nerds?  omg... unholy alliance indeed...

screw the fact that its the worlds most dangerous living room accessory!
i mean... think of ALL THE FUN U CAN HAVE WITH THIS THING!!!
i mean those small teacup poodles... smores...

0_0 ROBO COP!!!
exoskeleton that reduces all muscle strain and allows u to walk with ease
as well do more strenuous jobs (IE old ladies lifting garbage... or... boy takin over down town)

NOSTALGIA!!! rerelease of some old school hand helds... I HAD THAT
NINJA TURTLES ONE!!! i musta replaced about 200$ worth of batteries on that thing
alone...

um we are borg?  HUD (heads up display) similar to military aircraft now
on your very glasses!  NO we are not from DBZ or nuttin...

if ur diabetic and need insulin shots... this is a godsend!  this tiny chip injects (w/out needles)
a daily dose of it throughout the day... more akin to your naturally bodies function (such as the spleen)
its small, and can be placed anywhere.  the marvel of modern medicine...

called the Lucifer... this match carrying case doubles as a lighter... just shake the match out,
Pull and VOILA! fire! 

SCREW the conventional mirror... Mirror Mirror on the wall, who's the fairest of them all?
"SNAP" "POLAROID" "oooh its ME!!!" 
total waste of materials... but creative nevertheless.

I DRINK BEER! and use CPU!  USB flash and bottle opener in 1...


R2D2 projector!  u kno u want it. 

HAHAHAHAH CUUUUUUTE

nintendo fanboy side... drooling... cant stop.... myself... from... touching...

COOOL airplane design.

Windchime clock!  totally zen. ^_^

solar power USB port! awesome! charges batteries also

YUP.  my chess board baby!

cuz those racer boys need to strap their babies safe as they try to
"DRIFT" (wutever the fuck that means).

I swear i saw Tim Allen with this first... oh well.  cool thing to hide your food in
while you're in the garage.

symbolic clock... time gets shredded...

Bus Stop advertisements that WORK!  talk to another book in another part of town. hahaha 
u imagine "IMMA BEAT UR ASS!!! now tell me...WHICH STOP ARE U AT?!"
 
first it was a concept, now  i think its coming out for the movie (notice
optimus has sneakers on?)

EVERYONE NEEDS THIS!  this keychain ABSORBS the static charge u build up!
plus all the electricity temporarily lights up the stick so u can see in the dark!
^_^

coooooool.